04/09

Ehem...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NAKAMARU YUICHI!

maruu ;D

yeah, im like getting mesmerized by MARU's lately.

people might not understand what the heck im saying right now, but, meh. only people close enough know what im bablin bout.

fLMARUdaisuki!

wow, got that off my chest. hah. toodles!

P.S; this is just typical of me, haih.

get out of that hole.

salam.
hello.
skg xleh sangat online, so taking the chance here to post.
well, i don't understand why people need to be so negative.
really. kenapa mesti hina diri? i mean, what do you get from that?
or you say that things are unfair. what do you get after you announce that statement? NOTHING. really la. i can understand that we cant just accept something right on, and we need time, but we cant stay in the hole we fell in forever. and we cant expect for someone to pull us out every single time. what makes us so different frm positive people? talent doesn't separate us. nor does knowledge, but our mind set. our will. how we take up the challenges that we face. even i cant be that positive every single time, but kene lah ade a little faith and will, even if we cant potray it outerly. we dont need people to tell us we're good to realise we are, so please. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

emotional pain.

We always think our negative emotions are produced by the fault of other people or by the fault of circumstances...
Our negative emotions are in ourselves and are produced by ourselves...
No negative emotions can be produced by external causes if we do not want it.
We have negative emotions because we permit them,
justify them, explain them by external causes, and in this way we do not struggle with them.

-CHARLES T. TART

accepting ourselves.

There are things about ourselves that we need to get rid of;
there are things we need to change.
But at the same time, we do not need to be too desperate, too ruthless, too combative.
...many of those things will change themselves,
and the others can be worked on as we go.

-BENJAMIN HOFF

making changes.

Change is natural and wholesome, not something to fear and avoid.
By looking carefully at the changes that have happened in our lives,
we can see that the process of change is what brings all good things about.
When we allow ourselves to change, life swiftly carries us past difficult times and into times of joy and vitality.

-TARTHANG TULKU

mitch albom.

hello!
it is i. well anyway,
i'd like to be talking about the author above.
yes, i know. he's a western dude.
but still, hear me out.
i only know him through his writing and words,
so i might be exaggerating here won't i now.
well, if ur a book-in-need-er,
u should check out his books.
they are,
heart-breaking,
tear-dropping,
heart-moving,
experience-thrilling.
senang cerita,
incredible.
from all the books i've read my whole life,
his is the one i learned most from.
his books aren't that thick,
only a hundred page plus plus,
oh and they're really cute in size, lol,
but his words get to you and make you think,
what have you done in life?
he's not a muslim but use his writing as ur self-reference book.
because they are GOOD!
i've only read a few of his books je- and i can't wait to hunt for the rest,
but it really made me think.
made me realise things,
cherish things.
so here are the three books i read from his wonderful work;
tuesdays with morrie,
the five people you meet in heaven,
for one more day.
if you want to know what i mean,
then start with tuesdays with morrie.
it was about the author's life himself.
even my macho bro shed a tear drop when he read the five people you meet in heaven.
but feel la mase bace tu.
haha.
oh, and also read the work of our wonderful author from malaysia,
faisal tehrani.
i'm not loaded with info bout him,
but check out his blog.
oh, or ask my dear pencinta bahasa here. ;)
thank for the time!

face it.

the fear,
of losing every single thing,
i loved and adored,
rejoiced and cherished,
creeps towards me.
the upcoming truth,
i could not accept.
whatever future held for me,
that would take it all away,
i would love to banish.
even if a better life awaits,
how could i let go?
my heart would wound,
as if it had been stabbed,
for countless times.
and the scars would remain forever.
even if the memories fade away,
i would look back at it,
and it will all form again.
but everything that comes,
that has been brought to me,
must go one day,
sooner or later,
even the life i hold.
that was the deal right?
think about it.
we need to slowly detach,
let it slip from us.
one by one.
regret not of our actions,
but learn from it.
oh, and smile always (;
haha.

nuisance

haa, tak tau la cmne ttibe bende cmni leh termuncul cmtu je an.
yeah, im not the type to post my day on bloggies and all, but, hey, pape je lah kan.
i don't understand why people make up stuff, i mean, im fine if u think of stuff bout me, but to spread watever it is around? until that thing becomes a complete annoyance to me, and affects the innocent? macam..... ntah. inappropriate? ridiculous? unless i confess to the big wide round world about etc. etc. , don't go spilling beans la wei.
do not tinker with words that affect other's life.
if ure not satisfied with me, or if my doings catches ur utter most valuable attention, then say it to my face. i will assure u, i will not attack. lol, that sounded funny, somehow.
mungkin i'll greet u with a smile? yeah. i am that kind. so, pls do. as in to refer to me, not the whole other way. i will be delighted to hear any, to improve myself for the better of humankind.
thank you.

except it.

I was bored, so... here goes;

The things I cherished,
love like forever.
The visible and the unseen,
always in my mind.
As I grow up,
I find letting go is hard,
like crazy- to the extend,
when leaving my childhood,
is like killing my loved ones.
Or their presence around me,
are gone for the rest of my life.
They're always in my mind though,
and when I find their presence,
wondering around my conscious,
after I had slowly forgotten them,
every moment, bring it back.
The times I laughed, being foolish,
every single one of it.
I cry, I scream,
but they don't come back,
they just waved goodbye,
every single time.
I chase them,
but it feels like something,
is pulling them further away,
hurting me even more.
Then when I fall,
they disappear from sight.
I'll reach my hand out,
craving to be grabbed by them,
but only air circled around me.
Please, I begged.
Come back, don't leave me like this.
But then, sooner or later,
I'll have to face it.
The pain, the suffering being caused,
has to end.
Before I break,
into pieces that will keep hurting me,
and face the facts of their absences,
and smile like they're always around me,
just keep imagining and believing,
they're always here, with me,
deep inside my delicated heart.